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“There are no jobs here” is reverberating through my head. Those five words are killing me slowly.
Now, to be clear, this is something I heard in my dream last night. Whether or not it’s true, I don’t know. And the fact that I’m dreaming about work-related stuff is kind of creeping me out, but I digress. I woke up feeling a bit panicked.
What if it’s true? Chances are, it is. With this economy ::cringing::, who knows? I hate saying that, because I’m the girl that moved away from a well-paying job to pursue her career, despite the economy. Over a thousand miles away from everything that is comfortable, jumped into a lease for a year in a city I’ve visited once, I’m that girl. That girl that believed if she didn’t dream it, it wouldn’t happen. Was I overly ambitious? Did I think that I have more to offer than I really do? Was I blind jumping into this?
I am so loving every single second of adjusting to this new life. It’s exciting. It gets me up in the morning. But what if it doesn’t work out? I’ve been so focused on believing that it would, that I don’t think I took the time to assess how much it’s going to suck if I have to go back to bartending.
So, what can I do? Just keep working hard, I guess. Keep learning. Stay enthusiastic.
WAKE UP SYDNEY.
I moved here for a reason. Everything that has happened, how my life is coming together, is happening for a reason. One dream (or should I say, nightmare) isn’t going to shatter the hopes that I have for myself here. I’ve worked tirelessly to get to where I am sitting right now and I’ve looked at every angle possible.
Until then, I’ll do exactly what I said above, work hard, learn as much as possible and stay enthusiastic.
Self-doubt is probably just a part of the process. But instead of dwelling in it, I’m squashing that thought as soon as it came to mind. No need to have negativity bearing down. And, I can use that nightmare as a little fire to get in gear for whatever this week, and the weeks ahead may bring.
What’s next? I’ll keep you posted. 